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The Bench at 9:41

I started noticing her in the way you notice the first raindrop on a hot Trivandrum afternoon-without meaning to, and then not being able to think of anything else. Every morning, after the security scanner scanned my badge and I did the little dance with the turnstile, I would take the same spot on the wooden bench near reception. It was my "transition area", where coffee met courage, where I pretended to read emails on my phone and absolutely did not watch the glass doors. At 9:41 on the dot-give or take the vagaries of the Kazhakootam traffic, she would appear. Meera.   Shoulder-length hair tucked behind one ear , laptop bag, Saree draped on as a Friday Casual. And each time I saw her coming, my stomach would flip like a gull catching a thermal. The gut knew before the brain; she's here. The sunlight from the atrium would follow her inside, turning the scuffed floor into water. She walked with that quick, quiet purpose of people who don't waste time, and I watche...

Love in Four Movements – an autobiography I never meant to draft, but here we are

Prelude: Khamoshi Memories (Class XII, 1996) Khamoshi had not yet released, but it's songs was already playing inside my head: a medley of skipped heart‑beats and badly timed lab experiments. I was 17, perched on a high stool in the Biology lab when Miss A walked in - transfer student from another school in Jaipur, blue‑eyed hurricane in a bottle‑green salwar. From that moment my internal syllabus read only Love 101 . I did everything our Physics teacher warned us not to do with delicate equipment: I stared, I daydreamed, I forgot Ohm's law. Eventually I handed her a rose and a diary of love songs (90 rupees, Archies Gallery) and whispered the world's most nervous proposal. She said "No" - of course and the rumour ricocheted across campus faster than sodium in water. By dusk my mother greeted me at the door with a Malayalam monologue that made even the neighbourhood boxer (the other guy who liked her) look gentle. Exams arrived, Miss A disappeared, and I learn...

What the heck did I just watched?

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" What the heck did I just watched?"... That was me last night, eyes peeled to the screen, as Sister Midnight torpedoed every neat little genre box I tried to cram it into. One minute I'm snorting coffee through my nose while newly-weds Uma and Gopal bicker over a scorched dal (" Uff, garam hai!" ), the next I'm gaping at a jittery parade of stop-motion zombie goats clip-clopping across a rain-slick Mumbai rooftop -  "Run, bakri, run!" echoes a panicked vendor; and I honestly can't tell if I'm supposed to laugh, scream, or both. The film starts like a chatty slice-of-life rom-com, veers into domestic farce, plows straight through psychological horror, then somersaults into neon-drenched fever dream before dissolving in a puddle of monsoon water and raw emotion. By the time Uma roars " Sister… MIDNIGHT! " under a stuttering tube-light, I'm hugging a cushion like it's a life jacket. But here's why this carnival of ...

Eight Seconds Between Footsteps

Night had folded itself over the sleepy hill town of Marayoor, muffling its cardamom-scented air. In a hollow near the old forest check-post sat an abandoned government bungalow, once used by botanists who mapped the shola groves. Over thirty years the roof tiles had slipped into crooked smiles and the verandah planks had sprouted white mushrooms that glowed faintly after rain. Local tea pickers swore that the place breathed on misty evenings, but nobody bothered to prove or disprove that claim because the front door was chained shut with a rust-eaten padlock. Nobody, that is, until Amala reached the gate one September afternoon. She was a postgraduate researcher from Ernakulam, tasked with cataloguing archival field notes rumored to be languishing inside the bungalow. Those notes belonged to Dr Varghese, a vanished botanist whose last expedition never made it back to town. The department had sent three interns in the past decade to retrieve his materials, yet the gate had always def...

Between Beeps and Raindrops

The south-western sky over Kakkanad was smudged lilac when Dr. Anand Menon finally peeled off his blood-flecked gloves. A Saturday that had begun with a factory fire, lurched into a bus collision and fizzled out with the usual parade of chest pains left him feeling like a dishrag wrung dry. At thirty-three he was already the unofficial lynch-pin of Lakeshore City Hospital's Emergency Department; solid, unflappable, and so often on call that his mother joked the automatic doors recognised his gait and whispered "Welcome home." He stepped out of the staff gate, stethoscope coiled in a pocket like a tired snake. The air smelled of damp tar and jackfruit leaves; bus headlights cut silver across puddles. Anand was thinking only of the reheated avial waiting in his fridge when he noticed a powder-blue Scooty stalled beneath a fizzing streetlamp. Two women were stranded there. The rider wrestled a stubborn kick-start; the pillion, legs swung to one side, waved cars around with...

Goodbye CreativeLive - A Personal Farewell to a Beloved Learning Haven

Today, I stumbled upon the news I wasn't prepared for! CreativeLive - the platform that had once been a vibrant, inspiring corner of the internet - is shutting down. And as I read the announcement, a wave of sadness and disbelief hit me harder than I expected. It's more than just a website closing. It feels like the quiet end of an era that once held a special place in my heart. I've been a regular visitor of CreativeLive for years. It was more than a place to learn; it was a space that felt alive with passion, purpose, and creativity. Some nights, I'd find myself diving into hours of photography sessions, completely lost in the lessons, scribbling down notes, pausing to absorb a concept, rewinding just to hear a profound insight again. It became a routine, a sanctuary; my own little virtual classroom filled with light. Names like  Sue Bryce ,  Ben Willmore ,  Lindsay Adler , John Greengo and so many others weren't just instructors to me. They were mentors, gu...

Like the Rain, Like the Rainbow

When Anvitha first met Rithin, it was in the hum of fluorescent lights and the fragrance of jasmine garlands at a small temple on the outskirts of Alappuzha . Their parents spoke in excited overlaps about horoscopes and train timings; the young pair spoke scarcely at all. She stole a single curious look at him; enough to see the mild confusion behind his polite smile-then lowered her long lashes and turned the look into silence. In that instant, Rithin felt as if a cloud had crossed the sun; the world dimmed yet became mysteriously more vivid. Anvitha was unlike anyone he had seen in the cafés of Koramangala or the glassed-in meeting rooms of his software firm. Her beauty was quiet, almost secretive; A heart-shaped face, all soft angles and sudden mischief, is framed by a river of black hair that never quite behaves; some days it pours straight past her waist, some days it loops into loose waves, and often two rebellious curls slip forward to kiss her cheeks. Wide almond eyes edged w...